Hi I have a six year old biological son and have recently adopted a 19month old boy. Placement began 3.5 months ago. I am struggling. New baby is a very lovely boy...cute, sweet, friendly and attaching well to us. My eldest has his moments but on the whole has been brilliant in adjusting to the change and lack of attention and is very loving and overall happy with the new addition. I feel like I am struggling to bond. I am aware it very early and the new situation is very, practically full on. I have a good support network but its not as water tight as I hoped and certain changes in a few family members circumstances have ment it has changed and I am rarely getting a break. I am feeling exhausted most of the time and although I dont mind the practical graft and hardship I feel really uneasy about my emotional response to it all. I can appreciate and see how lovely my new boy is, but I dont feel a hell of alot and on some days I feel resentment, irritation or numbness. I also feel guilty toward mt eldest due to the lack of attention he is now getting. I have managed to keep things going and we have a good routine and do lots of activities, socialize alot. However I am feeling quite broken by the whole thing and like I am not a good enough Mum for either and how they deserve a better more robust parent. Reassurance would be nice that this is temporary. Like I say, he is gorgeous, its me.