Bye bye honeymoon period
We had amazing intros and first few weeks with our AS (2) and our BD (7) has coped enormously. We are entering the 4th month and it feels like the last 3-4 weeks I have deteriorated massively and I'm finding it hard to cope and be close to him.
In the first 2 months I felt very close and loving and now I feel myself recoiling and I have so much pent up anger it's unreal. It's not him - he is being absolutely fine and has come on in leaps and bounds, especially in his language. It's me - I am just simply losing my grip on things. Hubby is feeling this way too. We have absolutely no intention to disrupt - we feel it is something we can work through, but we are finding ourselves worrying about how our own behaviour is affecting him right now.
Possibly it is the shock of having a small child again who is as non-compliant as most two year olds, the shock of not having own time again, it also could be an external factor in that my Mum has leaned very heavily on us for support in the last month as she is having major problems with her partner - perhaps I just couldn't cope with her problems and my own all at once.
I recognise I need to do a lot of self-care. If anyone has been in this position where they have felt so much anger and can point me in the right direction of how they've overcome this point I am ready and willing to try anything.
Currently sat in bed now hubby is home from work with the intention of googling things like "dealing with anger" and "ways to bond" etc. I feel like I could do with some anxiety medicine but would hate for anything to effect our second review which is coming up.